Hey Dan! I do understand what you mean and it’s not a strange question at all I totally understand, I think I’m lucky in the sense that I’ve always naturally had the mentality of finding a way to win by whatever means possible and don’t mind even if it feels a bit rubbish or comes across as a negative style of play, I’d still rather win the match haha. But I do think this is important because no matter what your style of play and what your strengths you will always need to adapt to your opponents and how they play and there will always be players better at you even at your strengths.
I my advice would be just try to get comfortable in adapting your game and even if that means pushing or “playing negatively” if that allows you to win games it makes you a stronger player because you are able to adapt and beat players you might not if you stick to one style of play.
The more you do this you will get more used to mixing in your best way of playing with the winning tactics for a specific game and that’s what it will start to feel more comfortable. Where as at the moment if feels probably like a totally alien game style. I think there is aways a balance of course because you can’t totally switch your style depending on your opponent but more like you just adapt and make tweaks to your game based on them. But even if it feels strange it’s a great skill to be able to change the way you play to win, many players struggle with this. Hope that all makes sense. Tom 🙂
